The Name game
I have ten months left before Im to give up my last name, the name that has been “me” for the last 20 years.
Is it normal to mourn the lost of your maiden name? I feel like im going to be giving up “me”. I have a pretty unique last name, and with my first name thats also not overly common, I was/am the only one in my family, and by doing a google and Facebook search, the only one in the world with this full name.
Im the only one.
I’ve been the only one for 20 years.
Mr. Blur has a big family and his family already has one other lady with my first named that married into his family and now has the same full name that i’ll have in ten months time. And I just dont know how I feel about that.
Im used to being unique, and granted that lady and her husband live 100s of miles away and rarely come to visit but just knowing there is another person out there with the same name is different then knowing you’re the only one. When I think of my new name I think about her.
I dont want to hyphenate our names because im too old-fashioned for that, I want to take his name, I just dont want her to have it too :(
Plus my last name now means something in this town, when people hear it they assume things (like I have money since my family “does”) which could offend some people but I rather liked having that status. I guess its a good thing I live in a small town so most people will know my maiden name.
Well I have ten more months to get used to it I guess. I just cant wait to become his wife :D
Friday the 13th..
Im not a very suspicious person so it really means nothing to me, just another day and the beginning of my weekend in about 3 hours :D
The appointment with the Cardiologist went well, didnt take very long, just told me I can stay on the medicine and do the procedure whenever I feel up to it. With all the H1N1 stuff going around Im going to wait until probably march to do it. I forgot to ask the most important question and thats if I can be put to sleep for it so Im going to have to call them sometime and ask. Apparently this is a procedure they do while your awake and that terrifies me more than the actual procedure.
We also bought a new desktop computer, I probably shouldnt have but I needed something we can depend on and I’d like to get a printer too and be able to make our own things for the wedding and such. My taxes are going straight back into that account LOL
We havent hooked it up to the internet though so shortly we’ll be doing that, right now we’ve just been playing the sims 2 on it, I’ve never been able to play sims before so its kinda interesting lol
We’ve (me and my mom) decided its time to actually get serious about finding a dress, we’re less than 11 months away and I really don’t think i’ll be the kind of bride that picks the first one I try on (which obviously im not since i’ve tried on some one day but you know what I mean..)
We have absolutely no plans for this weekend and I love that. Im going to nap, clean, sleep, eat, and try to move all the pictures from the lap top to the desktop and then maybe start the slide show of pictures of us that I want to play at the reception, or one of my niece as a christmas or birthday present…oh the joy of doing things I want to do and not things I HAVE to do ie: work Lol
I hope you all have a GREAT weekend!!
Are any of you suspicious of friday the 13th?
Any big plans for this weekend?
Also any ideas on how to come up with titles for posts…Im the worst at that!
The heart beats..
So ever since sophomore year of highschool I’ve had this thing where my heart will very suddenly start racing and pounding so hard that it hurts and makes it sometimes difficult to catch my breath. It didnt happen very often so I didnt really worry about it, it would only last around ten minutes then it would be done with.
Well flash forward to last year and I have one and I finally decide im going to go to the ER and get it checked out..well it stopped before they hooked me up to any monitors and so they could not figure out what it was. They said since im so young they think it’s a panic attack or anxiety. I just knew in my heart that it wasnt either of those things because Im not freaking out over anything or worried or stressed or anything when these happen, theres nothing I can see that makes them happen more or less, it can be months between them or even days.
They put me on a 24 hr halter monitor and nothing happened so they said “yes must be anxiety” so I took it as that and went on with my life, they didnt happen for around 6 months than all of the sudden they were back, and more than ever, and longer than ever.
So I came back to the doctor and she put me on a 30 days halter monitor and within a week they had caught it and finally told me that I was right all a long and it is not anxiety/panic related at all but actually a heart condition called Supraventricular tachycardia or SVT, where my heart rate goes up to 250 beats a min(!) even thought the normal is under 100. It also goes into a rhythm that is dangerous. It’s not life threatening but can be if it last too long.
Apparently 1 in every 50 people have this and its more common in women..anyways the doctor wanted to put me on medicine but asked if we are planning on having kids, she doesnt want to put me on it then have to take me off or change it when/if I get pregnant so we wanted the safest drug out there but when she consulted a cardiologist about it he said that at my age it would be better to have this Procedure done. I go to the cardiologist on monday to discuss it with him.
The doctor has shown me things I can do on my own to get them to stop like gagging, coughing, splashing cold water on my face. And about 2 weeks ago I had one and I tried everything and it didnt work, the doctor also told me that if one didnt go away in 10 minutes then to go to the ER or I might have a heart attack from my heart over working and getting tired, well this one was already on about 20 minutes when I decided to go and by the time I got all hooked up it was still going on so at about 40 minutes of it the nurses and doctors started doing a lot of stuff, and that made me pretty worried, I got my first IV and it was quite an experience, it lasted a total of 55 minutes and then all of the sudden stopped.
THEN they decided to go ahead and put me on medicine until I can see the cardiologist, and I havent had one since so I think its working :)
Why Hello there! Remeber me?
So its been awhile since i’ve made a visit to this little ‘ol blog and I was thinking it’s about time to update again. Lots has happened..
- We got our engagement pictures done, we’ll be doing some more in the spring but the ones we got now are awesome and have some great fall colors, I did all the editing on them myself and I have a thing about pictures of feet/shoes/legs so I can upload some of those to show you.
- Mr. Blur is FINALLY done with all his mandatory things for the OWI he got in june. He can get his license back in a couple weeks. Thats a huge relief.
- My parents got their house sold, we got the money for the wedding, but other than that not much else has happened on the wedding front, we really need to start cracking on it so that im not stressed out the last 3 months with a ton of stuff to do. We’re less than 11 months away from the big day.
- We had another Halloween party, it was fun, but also a lot of work to clean up :)
- The losing weight thing is not going well, I just seem to want to eat all the time this last month and Im hoping it will get better, im going to start doing my Wii active again soon. Although that depends on this next bullet.
- We found out I have a heart condition, it’s not life threatening but it also can be if not taken care of. I have more to say on this so I’ll do another post.
Im sure there have been other things but these are the major things.
It’s beautiful weather here this weekend and Im going to take full advantage of it considering it will probably be our last warm day. I want to put Christmas lights up on the house because I know we wont want to get out and do it in the cold(and I definitely dont want Mr. Blur on a ladder when its icy, considering a prosthetic leg isnt the easiest to control on a ladder) but it’s definitely way to early for them(I wouldnt turn them on yet anyways) so maybe if were looking for something to do we’ll do it.
Off to Convention!
We’re going on a weekend trip again. :)
A weekend away at the Annual Fireman’s Convention. We aren’t firefighters but Mr. Blur once was and his grandpa retired from it after 40 years, and his dad is currently on the department. He has been to 23 of the last 24 conventions so we kinda “have” to go just to keep the tradition there. My favorite part is that each year its held in a different town/city and the towns always have lots of garage sales because of all the people coming to visit (all the fire departments across the state come to the convention), and I love driving around the town looking at different things.
Everyone camps out on the designated convention spot and its so cool because they all set up they’re campers and tents in squares for each department so and put up signs telling who they are so you can ride around the grounds visiting with all these departments from everywhere. Its really neat. They also do competitions for different fireman activities like water-balling and hose things lol I don’t know too much about them yet as I’ve only gone 2 years now but they are fun to watch.
I’ll let you all know how it goes when we get back! Maybe even a picture or two to try and show you what I described :-)
